Sometimes I wonder....Tuesday, February 1, 20057:01PM - forever...It's been almost forever since I've updated. Sorry Amanda. Stuff has been really crazy, especially with my sister. It makes me sad to see all the stuff she's involved with. She's totally heading in the wrong direction, and there isn't anything I can do about. I get so discouraged cuz I know she's not going to listen to me. Nick, I haven't gotten to tell you the whole story. It's a very sad one, sadder than the part I did get to tell you. And then last night I talked to Chris and told him that we probably couldn't do anything Friday February 11th cuz me n Nick might do something and he was like *sigh that's two weekends in a row. That made me kind of mad. I mean, yeah I know that I can't do anything this weekend until Sunday cuz of D-WOW, and he was ok with that. But now that I said that one day next weekend I'm going to do something with my out-of-town-best-friend he kind of freaks out. He said he's not mad, so maybe he's not. But he just seemed a little upset about it. But since he said he wasn't mad, I'll just go with that. If he is he should have told me. I really hope we can do something NICK!! Cuz we always plan to and it never works out. And anyway, there is Saturday that weekend, and Chris can deal. It's dinner time. Nick send me an email, and we can discuss whatever plans. Talk to ya later! Current mood:  sisters...Current music: Phantom of the Opera soundtrack Saturday, November 13, 200410:57PM - FUN FUN FUN lolOH MY GOSH I HAD SO MUCH FUN AT THE PLAY TONIGHT. The play itself was AWESOME. Joe did such a great job. It was hilarious. The second act was especially exciting for me though lol. Some guy (my date...guess who...lol) put his arm around me when the second act started. I swear I almost peed my pants I was so excited. (ok so i'm a dork) Anyway, I so bad wanted to kiss him. You just really don't understand. Anyway, toward the end of the second act he held me hand (o yeah we're movin on up *movin on up* lol like the jeffersons) I was excited about that too. Too bad I won't see him until Tuesday. That is seriously FOREVER!!! HOLY COW! Then my daddy took him home, and he put his arm around me then. It was a lil uncomfortable, but who cares?!?!?!?!?!?!?!? lol. I quit the play today too. I feel bad, but it was just too much to do. And plus I never knew about ANY of the practices unless I got a phone call. And I didn't know what I was doing or anything. Denise acted like she didn't care. I hope she really didn't. Heather this is your job: comment and tell me if she acted like she did when practice started. p.s. to heather : i miss you already!! I'm dying inside!! Amanda I would call you, but I"m afraid to interrupt your dance!!!! Maybe i will anyway. Depends lol. I LOVE YOU ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! bye! Current mood:  excited times a million n oneCurrent music: bsb n nsyc (don't ask lol ) Thursday, November 11, 20042:53PM - thursday....ALMOST FRIDAYSchool, was well, school once again. But it was fun its own way, lol *wink*. Chris was especially flirtatious, as was completely evident if you just looked at my right arm. I have pen marks all over it. Of course, he started the war but I definitely finished. (won too lol) Anyway,we walked upstairs and he gave me a hug (like a whole one) and then there was lunch, and then fourth period. Fourth period was kinda complicated cuz neither one of us understood exactly how to do our math homework. Oh well lol. He walked halfway to my 5th period again too, it was lots of fun then too lol. And he gave me a hug then too. It was a very exciting day. But now, I'm going to go do my zillion math problems. I'll enjoy, thanks!!!! Current mood:  cheerfulWednesday, November 10, 20049:25PM - wednesdays can be sooooooo tiring sometimesOk, so it's Wednesday. WOO the busiest day of my week, unless you count Sunday's too. Anyway, I had a great day (cuz I always only look at the highlights that way I always have a great day) (unless there aren't any highlights and then I just make them up so i can have a great day) Anyway, today's highlights most definitely qualify as G R E A T . First period was like every other day. A lot of flirting and talking. It was still fun. Then he walked with me to second (like everyday) and gave me a half hug. (woo gotta love those) And then I ate lunch with him (2nd day in a row I'm doing good!!!) And then math....o gosh math. I hate that class so bad, but Chris is in there, so it's almost ok. Anyway, we did a partner thingy. It was pretty easy. And then he walked with me halfway to 5th (totally new and very exciting) and i got another half hug. AND THEN I saw him after school, cuz he had to go to the seminar room 6th pd. And I talked to him for a while, and he HUGGED (big one) me bye. LOL. ok so i'm a dork who cares? I don't really remember the rest of the day....lol. It's just kinda disappeared. Church was fun though. We learned stuff, that's always awesome. ASHLEY I'm gonna add you, just gotta remember how. Current mood: ecstaticTuesday, November 9, 20049:52PM*sigh School was almost fun today. Chris is SOOOOOOOOO cute. I know I'll read this later and be like oh my gosh i was a total dork, but today I don't particularly care. Anyway, he ate lunch with me today, and helped me carry my backpack up the stairs (holy crap it was heavy)I'm about to be up to date number 3. O YEAH lol. I was worried about getting number 2. I think I'm doing pretty good. Of course, we've gone to the movies both times, and we might go again Saturday. It's kind of funny, but there's really not much else to do. Anyway, I don't feel o so great. I think I'm gonna get the stupid flu. It's really icky. I'm going to bed early so I can maybe not get it. Have a great day!!!! Current mood: happySunday, November 7, 20044:05PMThis weekend was so much fun!!!!!!!! well, minus today. Anyway Friday I went on church's Underground Church Retreat. My brother got arrested at that. It was kind of funny; too bad I didn't get to see it. Emily and I got so close to Cabin 13 (our next clue). We were standing like 10 feet away and didn't even know it. We didn't want to get arrested so we had to stay where we were standing. Then Greg came along and we asked him for pain medicine (cuz amanda injured herself...wow huh) and we had to walk all the way back to the parking lot. It was crazy. We eventually got where we were supposed to be. It was tons of fun!!!! Then Saturday we hung out at the camp and played games and stuff. After I got home I took a really quick shower and went to the movies with Suzette n Chris (hehe). It was fun. The movie was so retarded though. There was NO story line, and all this guy did was get women to have sex with him for a while and then he'd move on to a new one. It was so stupid!! But I had fun despite all that, cuz he was being so so so so flirtatious. It was crazy! But that's ok. He hugged me bye again. He's gonna call me later tonight, cuz he thinks I'm at practice. But I'm sick so I didn't make it there. Oh well. Amanda I'm gonna call you real soon!!!!!!!! Cuz I know you missed me. Current mood:  sickThursday, November 4, 20049:37PM - blehSchool......school should be banned after the 5th grade. I think that's about when it stops being fun. But anyway, if we don't ban school, we should ban all math beyond algebra and possibly geometry. There is an upside to this wonderful senior year of mine. There are boys...lots of boys. But, personally, I just like one. He's pretty nifty. And cute when he's mad (hehe). We went to the movies the 29th. I had so much fun! It was exciting cuz he didn't try anything!!!!!!!!!!!!! How many guys in the world, besides Garrett..., would go to the movies with a girl and try nothing? He did hug me bye, which was totally awesome. I think I smiled for like 3 days straight. And then on Tuesday I voted. GO BUSH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm so glad Kerry conceded. I really don't think he would be a great president for our country. Anyway, AMANDA I LOVE YOU TOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol Current mood:  tiredCurrent music: Avalon - JOY Sunday, October 10, 200410:16PM - Weird moviesI watched "Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind" with Lee today. It was a really strange movie. I don't get why people think it's ethical to erase people's memories like that. I mean, you make mistakes, you wish you'd never met someone, but you always grow from that experience. You always end up a better person. Why would you want to lose that? Especially so you can just lose the pain. I mean, sure pain sucks, but what would life be without ups and downs? This is making my brain hurt....I'll elaborate later. Current mood:  lethargicSaturday, October 9, 200411:52PM - The weekend is fading! It's so sad!Yep...went to the mall with Ashley and Melyssa. That was...fun. I don't think I like the St Matthew's Mall much. I was there for 3 hours and all I bought was food cuz I was hungry. That makes me sad. Nick didn't get to go....but we all knew that, so it's ok. Dad told me to start making plans for my birthday, but I don't know what I want to do. And I don't want some people to be there, but I know that if I don't invite them they'll be offended and then I'd be sad. *sigh Pleasing people shouldn't be so hard; it's tiring. Anyway, I don't know what I want to do or who to invite or where to go or anything. I don't even know what I want people to get me. I always feel bad asking people to get me stuff even though it's my birthday and that's just what you do. I guess I'm just content with what I have. Anyway, the mall was just bleh cuz I couldn't find anything good and hanging out with my sister and her friend is never fun cuz I just end up being the third wheel. I didn't go to the play practice today cuz I didn't want to. Dad was mad, so I just read a book and "waited" for him to tell me it was time to leave. I would have gone, but he didn't come in my room till 130 and I had to be there at 130. I suppose I could have gone late, but umm....no. I can't go the next two weekends, so I probably should have. Oh well, it's past. Next weekend I'm getting my senior pictures done (finally...) and the weekend after that is my birthday. It's kind of crazy that it's so close!! Tomorrow's gonna be fun (I hope...) Lee and I are going to Steak n Shake after church cuz it's her favorite restaurant. And then she's goin with me to my play practice and then to ministry teams cuz that's when I have praise band. And then I don't know what lol. But that's ok. Sometime in there I have to squeeze in math homework...bummer. well....i'm done Current mood:  thirsty2:51PM - Weekends are bleh!I didn't go to practice, but I still didn't get to go to the mall with Nick. He said his mom volunteered him for more than serving so he wouldn't be able to make it. It's sad. But I might still go with my sister and her friend Melyssa. She said she thinks there's a PacSun in the St. Matthew's Mall. I hope there is cuz I saw a super cute purse there when I was in Florida, but I was a little bit broke that day. Oh well. Tomorrow is going to be crazy...I have practice for the play at 130 or 2 and then I have praise band practice at 430. Plus homework that just never ends. Whoever said your senior year was easiest is a liar. Gotta go get ready to leave...Probably be back later. The PDL is great still!!!!!!! I'm halfway through, and still learning new stuff. Current mood:  blah1:36AM - I wonder...Have you ever wondered why life is the way it is? I do all the time. It kind of weirds me out, cuz I mean I'm only 17 (for two weeks) and here I am wondering why things are the way they are. Why are people so fake? I mean, why can't you just be yourself and stop worrying about what other people think? It would save people a lot of heartache if they would do that. Especially with people at school...If you don't like someone then why do you have to act like you do? I'm not saying be mean to people you don't like, but don't pretend to be their friend. That causes so many unneccessary problems. I hate high school for that very reason. I thought I had some pretty good friends at school, but now I wonder which of those actually wants me around. It's so silly, but it bothers me. And then there's Rachel. She just confuses me. I mean, she's so mad at me that she can't talk to me. But, of course, I have no idea what in the world I could have possibly done. She won't tell me, so I'm just stuck not knowing. It's really dumb. I'm sure none of you care, but it's my journal and you don't have to read it. And then there's the whole college thing. I should start looking harder and sending in applications and looking at scholarships n junk but I just don't feel like it. I hate being apathetic, especially since I know I need all the help I can get. And Lee got an acceptance letter from EKU this week...I just feel behind. Of course, it is only October... Current mood:  contemplativeCurrent music: joy williams - desperate |
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